Thursday, February 04, 2016

Life lately, on the mat, stuff and things

Ugh......... how many days are there in a work week?

Between setting fires with my mind at work, and my inability to sleep again, the past few weeks have worn on me.

God help me, because I can't seem to help myself.
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Mat Rat

I've been back on my mat this year. I'm hoping to attend YTT in October so I'm focusing on my practice.

Yoga is weird. I want to do it all day while I'm at the office, but early in the morning, and late in the evening I struggle to find the drive to get down and get yogi.

I'm currently working on toe taps thanks to my Ab'Asanas e-book from Morgan over at the_southern_yogi (check her out on insta!) I'm also working on crow pose. I am dying to get deep into inversions but I need to learn good balance first. Check out my video clip on Instagram here where I didn't do so well a few nights ago. Meh, you gotta laugh at yourself.
 
Did I ever show you my new mat? Here it is! eKO lite by Manduka. Hands down (pun intended) best yoga mats on the market. I do slide a little, but unless my hands are super glued to the floor, I probably always will. 
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Jesus take the lesson plan

In other news, I'm starting a new Sunday School class this Sunday. Let me rephrase that, I'm going to teach a new Sunday School class this Sunday. Let me rephrase THAT, I'm going to attempt to lead a new Sunday School class this Sunday. ...whew. The Lord will need to be in full-on 'go' mode in order to get this wild child through it. Prayers are appreciated, mandatory, and required from all of you. Thank you!
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Essential life

Here is a photo dump of just a snippet of my life over the past few months since I've been breaking from blogging. I've been focusing on the fact that I don't focus on things well. So I've taken time to be in my life a little more, and out here on the line a little less. Suck it up readers, you've survived.

This girl was my other half from 2nd grade until the last quarter of our senior year. She disappeared one day (not literally, there was no man hunt) and I haven't seen her in 14 years and 9 months. She walked through the front door of my brothers house last weekend and my heart exploded. Thank you God for keeping her safe and returning her to her owner. #friendsday



A nice afternoon making new friends, learning new things, and loving life.

How is it possible that even my shadow has the thickest legs of the bunch? Geez.

In case you can't tell, you have a cellphone camera and a 9mm pointed at you.

I ran 7.31 miles 2 weeks ago at the inaugural Trooper Dees Memorial Run. My time was dismal, my feet were heavy, my lungs were burning, but my effort was maxed, and I'm amazing.















There has been a little food here and there. The dude and I are a bit hipster sometimes, ...or maybe more scavenger/lazy....





  Who else can say they have an XYZ post and mean it?




Xena: Warrior Princess is on Netflix...gah!





My mom got 3 Yeti tumblers for Christmas and gave me one. I'm not complaining.








I love zuppa toscana from Olive Garden so I made my own. Sister o'dude inspired me to get after it...I ate too much, and I will do it again.

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 Do you use the Beauty Mode filter on your phone camera? I've used it A LOT, but didn't notice until now what it's really doing to my pictures. I knew it was smoothing skin and edges, but it's erasing all of my freckles! Those are BEAUTIFUL! I don't want those washed away. If only it would do what I want and smooth out my overbite... stupid technology.

I'm pretty like a bird, just the way I am.





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STUFFS!!!!!!!!!!








I don't believe that tacos are a gateway food. It's just not true. I can stop any time I want.









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How are you lately?
Did you make resolutions? How many have you already given up on?

Monday, January 18, 2016

The need to feel valuable

Inequity. The dictionary defines inequity as a lack of fairness, or to be unequal. While most people find fault in themselves based on a standard set by others, I find my 'faults' to be more of inequities; measured against my own standards that likely cannot be achieved.

For years you've read about my goals, my failures, and my stick-to-it-iveness. Under it all, I am 100% failure, and 100% lack of assurance.

This isn't an attempt to get your positive comments, or your support, or your 'you're beautiful, you're smart, you're "insert compliment here"'. No. This is a public expression of my realization that I place too much of my personal value in what I think others think of me. Not what they think of me, but what 'I THINK' they think of me. Have you ever seen the depiction of the man brain vs. the woman brain where ours looks like a bowl of spaghetti? Yeah, that's pretty accurate.

Many of my 'inequities' are shallow. Hair, body image, style, wit, and the like. Things I'm sure someone in my life envies, whether I know it or not. You and I both know that even when that someone tells you how much they wish they had your this, or your that, it doesn't make you appreciate that YOU have it.

Those aside, I do have real self-esteem issues that are deeper, and more important. Intelligence, creativeness, love, and devotion (to anything).

Where do we get the idea that who we are, and what we accomplish, isn't enough? It isn't enough for whom? God says we ARE enough. You want to talk about a standard we can't reach, let's look at Jesus. He died for everyone, forever, ever in the history of ever, before you and I were even here. I can't even remember most people's birthdays, and I have Facebook to remind me. There is no way I could die for the entire population of always-til-the-end-of-time, and do it with grace.

My hair embarrasses me.  My thighs are jiggly. My calves are too big for most boots. My bank account balance is so far from impressive. (If it impresses you, it's only because it's impressive how I can float by on pennies so consistently). My IQ isn't getting me into Yale. My house isn't getting me on HGTV unless it's one of those rescue shows. I'm not a Boston qualifier. My blog has ONE follower (of whom I am extremely thankful for) in the 11 years I've been writing.

I am not impressive.

I am something. I don't know what it is, but I am something. Oh sure, I could list a bunch of things I'm good at, or have done. This, however, is about a deeper desire to feel valuable. To feel necessary. To feel good. Actually, really, securely, wonderfully, totally good.

That can only come from God. Only He can show me how loved I am. My friends can tell me I'm a good friend. My parents can tell me how smart I am. I can be needed by someone, and share love and life with them. But to really fill that hole in me, I need God and His approval.

My primary love language is words of affirmation. Whether the world delivers that or not, I need it from God first and foremost. His Word of affirmation in my heart. In my soul.

By steadfast love and faithfulness, inequity is atoned for. Proverbs 116:6 ESV.

I read this and it opens another can of worms. '...atoned for'. I'm spending so much time worrying about my inequities and how they make me feel, I forget that I have to atone for the real inequities. ....and therein lies another inequity. I can't make up for my inequities on my own. Self-esteem crashes again.

Let's dedicate time this year to seeking deeper relations with our Lord. Let's shake off the worries of this life, and focus on the real goal.

Also, let's figure out how to make my hair look great without having that homemade hippie gel flake everywhere. It's really killing my confidence these days.


Tuesday, December 29, 2015

Doing all the things Tuesday

Oh, how exciting a new, or renewed, journey can be! We've talked about it. We've procrastinated. We've made excuses. We've overslept, and laid on the couch.

We. Are. Ready.

It's yoga time!

See how far I have fallen. Watch how far I will rise.

Flexibility is at an all time low. This is good though, it works as motivation. I'm teaming up with Yoga by Candace on her 31 day challenge. I've restarted the November challenge she issued, but she is starting a new challenge per her Instagram today. Eep! I chose Ardha Baddha Paschimottanasana, or, half bound lotus west extension for us Okies.





This is how I should look, and at one time, I did. Journey. It's a journey.

Hop over to her Instagram, YouTube, or website to check it out for yourself. I'm in no way affiliated, just motivated and inspired. That's why I'm here, to share mine and help yours.
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Eats
Last night was double date night! We went with a couple that he knows semi-well, and I was excited to get to know better. How do adults get to know one another? Well, burgers, fries, and laser tag, DUH! I lasered so many kids.... It was a laser-cre. Mwahahaha!

Jalapeno baja burger and rosemaryEVOO fries from SmashBurger gave us fuel, and we later wound down with a few arcade games and free soda at the casino. Ya know, adults have to be thrifty too.

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 Wearable

the Limited provided a nice sweater selection this year. Today's wearable is my new fave. I have stayed away from long, free-flowing shirts for a while, as I feel they make me look overweight and/or preggo. Meh, I've stopped caring about that idea. Mmmmm....asymmetrical buttons, so wonderful.

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STUFF!!




 Santa (aka, runningCurl) made a splash with my family this year. All the nieces and the one nephew (of my OK fam) got many, many autie gifts. A few other select members received tokens of my thoughts.

Splash is accurate. Did you see how much rain NEOK got? When they say 'take the high road' they really mean it around there.








I found this lavender infused soda at Eatzies. Um...yes please. More!!















Accurate weather map for NEOK on Dec 26 - 27. 78 degrees, then a few tornadoes, flooding, 40 degrees with 60mph wind, then 26 degrees with sleet, and finally, 2 earthquakes on Tuesday. Some people really do have it all.....






GO DO THINGS!

Thursday, December 17, 2015

Tradition? Schmadrition.

It's Thursday, who's wearing khakis???? NOT ME!!!!

Black skirt, black tights, black shooties....looooooong jacket. Yeah.

Haha! I know Prell got that.

I have a monster bruise on my leg, so no bare skin today. That doesn't mean I couldn't wear long khakis, but I've grown tired of the few I have.

Today at lunch I discovered a package on my front porch. What is it?!

(drumroll please......................)


MY FIRST FIX!!!

I know....I'm turning into one of 'those' people. But, think about it. I've tried a bunch of new things in 2015, just for fun. I didn't continue Blue Apron, but I did try it. I've tried new foods, but didn't necessarily keep eating them. I've tried new fitness options, but may have backslid to my old ways. I Hulu and Netflix instead of DishNetwork. I even bought a tablet, but I only use it for blogging and movies. I'm trying to try things, but that doesn't mean I'm staying on the bandwagon.

I didn't open it yet, because I love anticipation. Tonight we'll see what my 'stylist' sent me, and I'll have a report for you soon.

In the mean time, we're hoping for above freezing temps in the morning so I can walk at the track.
I'm hoping for good luck on my crochet and craft projects tonight.

Also, prayer is so powerful. I know you know that, and you know I know that, but we all know that we forget. When we really believe in our heart that we are talking directly to God, He hears it, and if it is part of His plan for us, He'll deliver. If He says yes it's a yes, and if He says no it's a yes. We just have to believe.

Proverbs 16:6

xoxo, until tomorrow!


Wednesday, December 16, 2015

Straighten up and fall right

Happy Wed-uh-nes-day to you.

I overslept, again, and didn't accomplish any predawn physical activity. Sorry neighbor! I left you stranded in the driveway at 5am!

I made it back to the chiropractor today since my lower back has been agonizing. I hadn't been since just before Thanksgiving and I could tell. While there I got my necklace caught on the table and broke it (but fixed it), cried because the bad, bad pain felt really good at the same time, and then I fell off of the sidewalk on my way to my truck. Good thing I have another appointment scheduled...

129 days until the OKC Run to Remember! What am I going to do? I have a sore ankle now, no discipline, and less enthusiasm than a proctology intern.



Remember this? 30 minutes before the start of the 2015 OKC Marathon. I can't wait to get back there!


Thankfully Christmas is almost here. I'm about worn out on plans for that, but presents are always fun! Did you buy my yoga mat yet? There's still time!

I need to finish work for the day so that I can head home to make chili.

Things I need to do:

Read my bible
Sleep
Finish crochet and paint pen projects
Stop falling (except in love) ((I know....gross))
Run

Look at that, I put 'run' last. I guess we know how I really feel about it. Obviously blogging is a science and gives us a clear picture of what's really in our minds and hearts. It's science, people. 


Tuesday, December 15, 2015

Crochet Tuesday and ...things?

TUESDAY!!!!!!

How long has it been since I did girls night with M? I don't remember either! Tonight is old fashioned, throwback, doin' it up, ladies night. You know what that means....tacos and complaining in sweatpants!!!

Actually, I'll be working on some Christmas crochet projects while she vents/updates me on life on Pine Street.

Here is one project I'll be making:
You can check out the creators post and pattern here on Little Monkeys Crochet. 

I have high hopes for a good result. You know I always do, and then it doesn't, and then I just give up. At least I'm consistent.


No, I didn't work out. No, I didn't run. No, I didn't yoga.

Oh! Yoga! Hey blog-fans. If you needed a last minute idea for Christmas, for me, and you have money to blow, here is what I want.
Go here and buy one now! Please? You can ship it straight to my office and I promise to upload a picture of me using it. Ok...at least standing on it. 

The traditional magic carpet yoga mat. They are $45-$98, but they are soooooo sweet. If 98 of you get together this could be totally doable. Think about it!

Also, if you want to cut costs and get something less useful but just as rad, you can get me this:
I have a Galaxy S4, so make sure you get the right one. Super cool, just like me and you! Land ho!

Ok, I'm not full of information today. Work, Christmas shopping with the beardface, too much food, and not enough sleep.

Let's regroup tomorrow, eh?


Monday, December 14, 2015

IT WORKS!!!!!

Hello there! I got my google photos to sync again! It's been over a month since I was last here with you, and longer than that since I had functioning sync. It's a bit sad how reliant we are on technology.

Let's get it out of the way: I'm sorry.

Ok, now, that we are super friends again, I want to get you up to speed. Unfortunately I don't have pictures for EVERY exciting moment of the past 4-6 weeks, but I do have a lot.

Let's see what I've been up to!



I'm sticking by my belief that this is a positive thought. It really could turn the other way quickly.





WORST. THING. EVER





In November our Leadership group toured 5 of the largest employers in our area, aside from the hospital. My favorite was Cardinal Glass. I faced my fear and walked along side a 1/4 mile length piece of continually moving glass.

It starts as sand, then in 3000 degree temps becomes a blob that eventually becomes the most terrifying, scary, bad, bad thing: Glass.











I went hunting early one Saturday. Rain, wind, 34 degrees. All smiles! Note, don't go hunting in glasses; it's difficult to see through the binoculars.











You wouldn't know it from our 68+ temps over the past few days, but, we did get our first frost already. This was a few weeks back.




 I tore the remains of Co-garden out of the ground. After the sun pattern changed and the frost came, all hope was lost. The yard has become a yard again, and the cages are headed to storage.

Fear not. Plans are already in the works for CG2K16. We will replant. We will reproduce. We will grow again!
A most excellent friend shared a beautiful piece of cake with us one evening. Cake AND flowers? I may be tough now and then, but this girl is a girl to the core. Yes, please!
 



There was a wedding where he looked dangerous...

 And a Christmas party where I looked weird...












And a church service where they just melted my heart....















 And a photobooth fail by the Prell and I...






And a random stranger mistook the dude for this guy. I think it's pretty spot-on.






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Running? What is this activity you speak of? Well.....see, what had happened was.....

Yeah, yeah. My friend Pam just finished her 365 days of running, and as much of an inspiration as she is, I just haven't gotten back to it. I've visited the gym a few times, kept up my walking, and have jogged a few blocks.

OKC Run to Remember is only 131 days away. If I'm going to survive the full marathon, or crush it in the half, I MUST get moving.

Any words of encouragement?